The beginning of a new me, but with "cavernous Malformation:

March 29, 2017

I've been in the hospital for like 3 days now. I miss my son and family terribly, and my baby boy misses me so much I fact that he can't sleep right without me. Today I was diagnosed with cavernous malformation; an abnormal formation of blood vessels in the brain  or spinal cord. A hemorrhage from the blood vessels can occur, and in my case it has. Its a rare disorder but its also hereditary and i believe that it comes from my father's side. Some symptoms include seizures which unfortunately I have that brain activity, headaches, nausea, neurological loss, such as limb weakness and balance problems. In my case I'm that 1% who has all those symptoms affect me. Its been difficult especially since my speech is being affected and it's frustrating trying to talk normal but everything comes out either slurred or messed up. I've been put on new anti seizure medication thur an I.V, when I get home I'll need someone to watch after me for I don't know how long. Finding out you've had a hemorrhage and blood clot in your brain that affects your body, speech and head pain is one thing. Then finding out that this is something you have to carry with you for life is another thing. I don't know where to go from here, what questions to ask and so on. I'm not the only one being affected by this my family and friends are too. I would now forever have people constantly worry about me and I might not even get to have total freedom like I did before.